299.8 and counting

Today I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a Mac Truck.  The last 2 CrossFit Workouts kicked my ass (in a good way).   When I stepped on the scale this morning I was at 299.8 pounds, 30 pounds lighter than I was at the beginning of the year.  Last week I told my family that when I broke 300 we would go celebrate at Dairy Queen.  This morning i told them that they would have to go celebrate without me, because I decided I don’t need that reward, seeing the scale at less than 300 was reward enough.

I have also realized that I have overcome another obstacle.  Before I joined CrossFit I was very self conscious.  I was very uncomfortable with the thought of working out in front of others, would never have considered posting my weight, or ridden a bike down the street.  The anxiety level I had walking into the gym the first night was incredible, I can remember taking a deep breath just before I opened the door and telling myself “I can do this” (or maybe it was what the fuck am I doing, I don’t quite remember).  I have come to a point where I don’t care if others have negative thoughts, and really believe that most people are supportive.  I am doing this for me, and if someone wants to get a chuckle out of that Fat Guy on the Mountain Bike, then I am glad I could put a smile on their face.

I am so excited about what the future holds for me.  I am looking forward to going hiking, REAL mountain biking, rock climbing, or even jumping out of an airplane if I want to.  All the things that my weight have been holding me back from doing for my entire life.

I am so lucky to have friends’ joining me on this journey.  I’m sure it will be a fun ride!


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